Sunday, May 31, 2009

Catching Up


Now that our computer is back up and working, I can actually share some of the things we've been doing with you all!!!

When I was 16, my Dad got transferred to Utah from Kansas. I did NOT want to move here. It was hard. I felt so different from every one else. Even though I was of the majority religion, I was not of the majority mindset -- I wasn't used to going to a huge high school, much less one that was 98% Mormon. I was different from everyone else. I didn't like it. I swore that I would leave Utah as soon as I could and would NEVER live here as an adult.

I went to Utah State University and loved it. Then when I was 23, I moved to Kansas. I met Jeremy, we got married, had Emma, she died, we moved to Utah. It was for graduate school. I knew I wouldn't end up here. Jeremy finished graduate school and we waited 8 long months for him to find a job. Then he got 2 offers in the same week -- Warsaw, Indiana and Logan, Utah. We prayed about it. We felt very strongly we were to move to Logan. Neither of us could believe we were going to settle in Utah. But here we are.

My Mom has always said, "bloom where you're planted" and I am trying. I've been trying to find things I like about Utah and embracing them.

Two weeks ago, we went up into Logan Canyon for the day. This is why I love where I live. It is close enough that we can drive up into the mountains any time we want.

Ah, I really do love going up into the mountains and enjoying all that God has given us.

More reasons I love Utah -- my family is here. No, not my folks, or Jer's folks for that matter. Three of my 4 siblings live here. My kids get to grow up around their cousins and I get to see my brothers and sister at least once a month. We went to Kaysville yesterday and visited Emma, then went to my brothers house. Seth and Amelia had so much fun playing with their cousins and I had fun visiting with my brother and sister-in-law. We've always had a special relationship with this family, we all lived in Kansas together and then they moved to Utah. We love you guys, thanks again for having us over to play!

We also went to Salt Lake yesterday to meet up with Michelle to get our pictures done. As we started heading down to Wheeler Farm for said pictures, we saw some nice dark rain clouds. About the time Jeremy asked if we had a plan B, Michelle texted me and said that she had umbrellas for the rain. She read our minds. We had such a good time and I think that the pictures are going to turn out really cute. It was so great to finally meet her, as I am a blog stalker, and be able to talk about our angels. Thank you!!!!

Hope you are having a wonderful weekend. I am teaching in Young Women's today and then we'll probably walk over to Jeremy's Grandmas house smelling the lilacs along the way. Oh yeah, I have lilac envy. I want LOTS of lilacs at my house. Maybe next year. Until then, don't mind me as I walk by and smell every one that I see.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

What I'm Loving...

I did this in the fall, and it's time again. The things I am LOVING right now.

As you know, I am going to BlogHer in July. I have been thinking a lot about what I am going to wear. I am making myself a couple of the A-Line Skirt by Amy Butler for sure.


Last night though, I saw this adorable skirt on the girl who does my hair. Her Mom made it for her and she called me today with the pattern number. I am going to Joann's tonight to buy it.


Ok, so skirts, check. Now I need some cute tops. I have an aversion to sewing sleeves, at least set in sleeves. So, I need to find myself some really cute tops that will look good with my skirts.

I went to DownEast the other day and got a really cute one, which of course isn't on their website, but here are some others that I love.


Ok, so now that I have skirts and shirts taken care of, SHOES. Any of you who know me know that I love my Crocs. They are the most comfortable shoes I have ever owned. Now I know a lot of you fashionistas out there cringe when I say Crocs. Well, you haven't seen their new Women's line then. Oh.my.gosh. Here are a couple that I am drooling over.


These are the Cyprus shoes. Aren't they just the best? And, they come in 7 different colors!!! LOVE THEM!These are the Rio Sandals. I really can't decide which ones of these are my favorites. It is between the Cyprus and Rio. I love them oh so much. I may have to get both pairs! Who am I kidding, I have no money, so I will just drool over them!

What else am I loving right now? Besides the beautiful weather and my silly children?? Watermelon. I think I ate an entire watermelon by myself the other day. Oh man it was so good!

Saturday mornings at the Gardener's Market and fresh greens from local farmers, yeah, that's the best.

I bought 5 sunsugar tomato plants this summer. I can not WAIT for these babies to be ripe to eat. They are the best and my kids eat them like candy.


How about you, what are you loving right now??

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

The Boy


"Mom, it says 'faith' in Star Wars"
"Really?"
"Yep. So, does that mean I can watch it on Sunday?"

Oh that boy...he is something else.

Monday, May 25, 2009

UnCamping 101


In this course, we will be learning about how to uncamp with your children. The following supplies will be needed in abundance:

1. Patience
2. Sense of Humor
3.Flexibility

With these three items, your uncamping will be a success.

Now for the steps to uncamping.

1. Pick a weekend, preferably a holiday weekend, for camping. Tell your children all week long that you are going camping on Friday (or whatever day you choose). Get them very excited. Buy the food, get the car packed to go camping as soon as Daddy gets home from work. Make sure before you do this though that it will be a very busy weekend and that there will be no campsites available in your preferred camping destination -- or any destination for that matter.


2. Go looking with your children for a campsite. Now, this is a really critical part -- do it during the time when your baby should be going to sleep. This way she will be screaming bloody murder while your other children are asking you every two seconds, "Are we going to stop here? This looks like a good place, can we camp here?". Very critical information for making the most of uncamping. If you so desire, stop somewhere to nurse the baby and chuckle when your children freak out because there is a bug on you and when they tell you they want to go back to the car because of the flies.


3. Go home. You may feel defeated at this point and that is ok. Just make sure you go on to the next step. It will be ok, I promise.

4. Get the brilliant idea to do back yard camping. Get everyone excited, this is going to ROCK!

5. Set up camp, take LOADS of pictures, cook hot dogs (or your food of preference), eat Doritos like they're going out of style, load up on some yummy grapes and make s'mores. Play in your backyard, forget about the phone and the computer, and just have fun with your family.

6. Realize at 10:30 that your kids are not going to sleep outside and take your screaming children inside. You might be feeling a bit defeated at this point. That's ok.


7. Get your children in bed. They might need some extra snuggles as they are very sad right now. They had it in their minds that they would be sleeping in the tent. And they would have if they hadn't been messing around and making Daddy very irritated. So, sing to them, give them a little Calms Forte, rub their backs and promise them that you'll still have a camping breakfast in the morning. Then, take a shower and collapse in your bed.

8. Wake up glad you are in your own bed and you could shut out the sun for a couple of hours. Make pancakes and eggs and strawberries for breakfast, just like you would have when you were camping, except inside in your kitchen.

9. Get ready for another fabulous day and promise your children that you will go uncamping again...just not tonight.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Shop Update


Head on over, let all of your friends know, I have updated my Etsy Shop!!! New dresses, great fabrics and some fabulous pictures of my girls!!!

See you there!

Friday, May 22, 2009

This is making me laugh so hard

Friday

This has been a week. That is all there is to it. I am working on repurposing two skirts and I really stink at zippers. So, I have had to completely rip out half of a skirt, including the zipper. We are going camping tomorrow night, so I have been trying to get everything ready for that.

I am really exhausted. So is Amy. Go read her post, it rocks.

I have made graham crackers 3 days in a row. I love them. Can't wait to have S'mores with them tonight.

Jeremy and I have decided that the best vacation would be to have a maid and a cook come to our house and cook and clean for us for a week. Then I could do the important things like playing with my kids. That would rock.

Still no pictures. The big computer is still broken and I really don't know how to put the pictures from the camera onto the laptop. So...you'll just have to bare with me. Is that the right spelling of bare, or is it bear? I don't know.

Seth is learning to ride his bike without his training wheels. It is tugging at my heart. That is another post for another day.

Have a fabulous Memorial Day weekend and be safe. Go kiss someone you love.

xoxo

Thursday, May 21, 2009

All About Cloth :: Part Deux

Ok, so now you know a little about your options out there for cloth. But there is still so much left. Covers. This can be kind of daunting, PUL, Wool, Fleece, Nylon, Aplix, Snaps...what?!?!?! I am going to break it down for you with pros and cons of each again.

PUL - otherwise known as polyurethane laminated fabric, is a lot more technical than just a plastic backing on fabric. The original application is the medical field, and it is still used for this purpose. Like cloth diapers, it is used to replace disposable products with reusable. It provides the waterproof barrier needed in the medical field that can survive multiple institutional washings. The laminate can also be autoclaved, which is a very high heat steam sterilization process, to make it safe for reuse even after it comes into contact with blood or other bodily fluids.

The polyurethane laminate can be customized by the manufacturer and comes in different thicknesses. For cloth diapers, 1 mil or 2 mil is generally preferred. This allows for a good stretch, complete waterproofing, and is still comfortable enough to wear next to the skin. There are other options for waterproof fabric, but PUL is so durable and reliably waterproof it has become a favorite for cloth diapers. It has been truly kid tested! (info taken from here).

This is what most diaper covers are made from. I love the PUL diaper covers I have. Mother-Ease, Bummis, and Thirsties are my favorite PUL covers.

Pros: These are LONG lasting covers. You can get them with velcro or snaps. They are great at containing leaks and wash really easily. You can find PUL covers in a variety of designs and colors. Good price for the cover.

Cons: They are not as breatheable as wool or fleece.

Nylon: The first diaper covers I ever bought were nylon. They are more lightweight than PUL covers and equally as protective. I really love nylon. They are more breatheable and quite cost effective. The company that made my original diaper covers is no longer (sob sob sob), but I have found some nice alternatives.

Pros: Breatheable, great price ($5!), wash very easily.

Cons: Right now I can only find them in a pull up pant. This on it's own isn't too bad, but when paired with a poop filled prefold, you could get some poop down the leg and whatnot. But, that is really the only con and it is something I can (and do) live with.

Fleece: A good fleece cover is a MUST. Fleece is breatheable and is really easy to take care of.

Pro: Breatheable, easy to take care of -- meaning you can wash it with your diapers and put it in the dryer, quick drying, keeps your baby's bum cool. Great for night time.

Cons: A bit bulky. Really, that is the only con I've ever found with fleece.

Favorite Fleece Cover - Stacinator Fleece Cover. This is the first fleece cover I have ever bought and still use them all the time. I have 4 Stacinator fleece covers in my rotation -- 1 newborn 1 small 1 medium 1 large and I LOVE THEM! (Stacinator is not paying me nor do they have any knowledge of my humble little blog).

Wool: This scares people. When I told my Mom I was going to use wool covers with Emma she was a bit nervous. She warned me that wool is itchy and that it would probably cause Emma to break out in a rash. I was not yet a knitter, so I didn't know how soft wool could be. I just knew that everywhere I read, wool was being praised, so I knew I had to give it a shot.

My first experience with wool was great. I got a wool cover from Stacinator (this was back when it was a WAHM company). I quickly lanolised it (putting lanolin back in the wool to keep it waterproof) and realized I had done something terribly wrong. The lanolin was chunky and all over the cover. It was ruined, I was sad. I contacted Stacy of Stacinator and told her what had happened. She apologized profusely (as if she was the one who did it) and said that her instructions were not clear. She then sent me a NEW cover and a prepaid envelope for the ruined one. She made a life long customer of me.

Ok, so what is the big deal with wool? Why do so many people love it? Why is it so scary? I really could do an entire post just about wool, but I will try to keep it simple and give you lots of links so if you want more information about something you can get it, deal? deal. Ok, here we go.

Wool has antibacterial properties. It is also very absorbant and can absorb up to 30 times it's weight. The lanolin in the wool keeps it clean, as one of my friends said, lanolin plus urine equals soap. So, this is what keeps it clean. You don't have to wash your wool unless it's poopy. I recommend getting a wool wash bar for these occasions. You will have to relanolize it every month or so, but that is not a big deal. I love Green Mountain Diapers site for all things wool. She has the best selection of wool covers, and has a fantastic tutorial of how to wash and lanolize your wool. Click on that tutorial link and read what she says. She is so very smart about wool and says it much better than I can :) Wool is breatheable and you can make your own covers really easily. If you knit, this is a great pattern, if you sew, this is a great pattern.

Snaps vs. Velcro

This is really a matter of personal preference. I like snaps, my sister-in-law likes velcro. You really can't go wrong. My favorite snap cover is this one, and her favorite velcro cover is this one.

In the last post I was asked by 2 ladies how many to start with. This really depends on how often you want to do laundry. I will tell you what I recommend, but you can do whatever you want.

2-3 dozen diapers -- prefolds, all in ones, fitteds or pockets. If you are getting pockets, get enough inserts for them also.

4-6 covers -- PUL or Nylon.

2-3 wool or fleece covers for night time.

2 dozen cloth wipes if you choose to do cloth wipes.

1 diaper pail -- a big trash can works great for this.

If you want to sew your diapers, I recommend going to Diaper Sewing.

You can generally find great deals on gently used diapers and covers at Diaper Swappers. I love that site! Also, Diaper Pin has a ton of great resources and reviews on diapers and covers.

There we go...did I forget anything? Questions? Are you more confused than ever? I hope not!

To the cloth diaperers out there, what do you use and love? What advice would you give a newbie? What was most helpful to you when you first started out?


Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Perfection


I am a strong believer that when my children can and want to dress themselves, I let them. Sometimes that means that I have Batman, Super Seth, Obi Wan, Princess and the Pea, Padme or a Fairy Princess with me at any given moment. I love that. I love to see what happens when I just let their imaginations go.


Jeremy's Mom made my girls some darling dresses with an Alexander Henry fabric I have long drooled over. Amelia insisted on wearing her dress last week, then found a sweet jacket my Mom got for her and topped it off with this sweet hat we found while thrifting a few weeks ago. I think she looks perfect, don't you?

Sunday, May 17, 2009

8 Months, 9 Days.


Libby has officially lived longer than Emma. This is always a bittersweet moment for me. Emma died at 8 months 8 days old. When each of my other babies have reached this age, I have held them a bit tighter that day. Today was no different. Libby seems to have turned a corner too with sleep. Maybe she just felt my stress of her age because she is sleeping great right now as I type this. So, knock on wood, I think we're on the upswing.

So, now that I feel like we're out of the woods a bit (although I know it doesn't matter, when God needs these babes, He needs them), I feel like I can write about my sweet 8 month old.


Liberty Jane,

You are such a goofy girl. I love when you sing, you do it a lot and sing LOUD. I love that you sign and say Dad (ok, it's more like Da, but still), it is SO cute! You are still a little sprite, but what you lack in size you make up for in personality. You light up when you see Seth and Amelia. They are your best friends. You love to follow them around the house picking up everything they drop and putting it right into your mouth. Some interesting things I've found in your diaper recently -- onion peel, a pea (you don't eat solids yet), stickers, torn book pages, grass and various other unidentified objects.
You love Mama more than anyone and have started pulling up on my legs when you want me to hold you.
You crawl so fast, it reminds me of Emma. When our hardwood floors and tile floors are too much for your little knees, you will do the Spidey Crawl. I love this.
Your hair is coming in pretty blonde and you sunburn really easily. You love sleeping in the Ergo or the sling and LOVE your binkie -- except when it's time to sleep, then you only want Mama.

I love you more everyday and am thrilled I get to keep watching you grow.

Love you baby,
Mama

Saturday, May 16, 2009

All About Cloth :: Part One

I have been asked several times to share my knowledge of cloth diapers and why I even do it, with my blogging friends.

When my sister-in-law had 3 in diapers (twins and one 20 months younger) I had my first exposure, as an adult, to cloth. She had 5 children under the age of 6 and being the resourceful woman she was, she used cloth. I thought it was really cool, but not for me. Fast forward 4 years to when I had Emma. I had a large stash of Pampers and they worked great. I'd talked to her about cloth, but wasn't convinced. After all, she had a 2 year old that she only did cloth occasionally with, so why would I want to do it?

I met Landra in our Bradley Method Childbirth classes. She lived around the corner from me and would often walk over to say hello. I thought this woman was amazing. She rode her bike throughout most of her pregnancy. And not just on flat surfaces, she rode up to the campus of KU, anyone who knows that campus knows there are some major hills there! One week before Emma was born, Landra came over with sweet Elsa in her sling. I oohed and ahhed over this sweet new baby and we talked about her birth. She told me she was doing cloth diapers and I told her that was great, but just not for me.

That was on Thursday...Emma was born on Sunday. For the first two months, I bought diapers every week. I didn't like the perfumey smell (little tidbit about me, I don't like perfume or smelly stuff), but what else could I do? It was better than the smell of dirty cloth diapers, right???

When Emma was about 2 months old, I started talking to people about cloth. I went to Landra's house. It didn't stink like diapers. I went into Elsa's room where the diaper pail was (a big industrial trash can), again, it didn't stink. I asked and she showed me several different types of diapers and covers she was using. I started to think...maybe....just maybe....

The next step was to talk to my sister-in-law. She got out her diapers and showed me them. She talked to me about washing diapers, my different options and why she loved them. In the course of this talking, she decided to start using cloth again on her 2 1/2 year old.

I talked to Jeremy. He was the hardest sell. He was in his senior year of undergrad at KU and we had less than no money. We were living on Pell Grants and scholarships, oh and his very megar income from his job at the campus library. So, he said that we could do cloth on the following conditions -- 1. He would never wash the diapers, so don't even ask and 2. it had to cost equal or less than disposables would until he graduates -- in 3 months.

With $50 and a lot of determination, I set out to find the best deals and start cloth diapering. I was a woman on a mission and I was excited!

Over the last 6 years, I have tried MANY different kinds of diapers, from the cheapest to the most expensive. I will give you an overview of my favorites and what has worked for us.

When I started I had $50...not a lot. So, I went with 3 dozen prefolds, 6 covers, 1 snappi and 2 sets of pins. The company where I got my diapers from is no longer (still makes me sad, they had the best covers!), but I got all of that for $50. I had 5 nylon covers and 1 wool cover.

The day my diapers came I was so excited. I threw them in the wash with a tablespoon of detergent and washed them exactly like I was instructed. I washed them again and again and put them in the dryer. I was THRILLED with how soft and fluffy they were. I put one on my sweet Emma's bum and the angels sang. Ok, not really, but we were all pretty excited. I never pinned her, and we really liked them.

It didn't take long until I found that there were TONS of diapers and covers on Ebay. So, I got a few fleece covers and was good. I even dyed my nylon covers with food coloring and vinegar. She had a cute bum for sure.

I was a convert, there was no going back. In the last 6 years I have used disposables on occasion -- if my baby has a really bad rash (anytime there is a rash that isn't going away switch whatever you are doing -- if you use cloth switch to 'sposies for a bit and vice versa), if we are travelling and I don't want to tote them, and right now at night for Amelia.

Now that you know how I got into it, what about all the different kinds of diapers out there? I can't tell you about ALL of them, because I only have experience with some. But, I can give you the information I have and point you in directions to find more info to help you find what is best for your family.

Prefolds -- I love these. I use prefolds on my kids, always have, always will. They are great, great, great.
Pros: They last a long time (I'm still using some from when Emma was a baby) and when they wear out, they make great rags. You can make them fit any size baby and they truly are the most versatile. If you don't have a lot of money, this is a great way to get started.
Cons: They don't hold in the poop, so it's going to get on the cover. If you don't mind giving your nylon covers a quick rinse, then you should be ok with these. You need a snappi or pins with prefolds.

Fitted Diapers -- I have a lot of fitted dipes. When I was pregnant with Amelia, one of my friends got me 13 Kissaluvs. I fell in LOVE with these.
Pros: These are my favorite when they are little ones. I love that they keep the poops in. We all knows babies can have very explosive poops, and these contain the most expolsive ones I've seen! They are relatively trim and fit for a long time. Libby is still in the size 1's.
Cons:The only problem I've found with these is that after 2 kids, the elastic is pretty worn out and they are not as fitted around the waist as they once were. I find that the size 0 diapers are lasting a lot longer because they don't get used nearly as much. They don't keep their resale value, so if that is something you are worried about, and you intend on having multiple children use these diapers, take that into consideration.

We also use the MotherEase One Size fitted diapers. I like these a lot. They seem to hold up a bit better than the Kissaluvs in the elastic area. I like that you can get the snap in stay dry liner also. These are the ones we use the most next to prefolds in my house. I find that the cons are about the same with these as with the Kissaluvs. I have a few used ones that are really threadbare, but I find when paired with a liner, it gives them a new life. They're great.

Pocket Diapers -- I have used two different brands of pocket diapers - Happy Heiney's and FuzziBunz. I liked them both. They have fleece on the inside and a pocket to stick a prefold or a doubler into for absorbancy.
Pros: These are great for babysitters or someone who is maybe not very familiar with cloth diapers. You can have them stuffed and ready to go. They are very easy to use and now come in One Size! This wasn't an option when I bought them, I would love to try these new pocket dipes! Both companies are great to work with. One of my Fuzzi Bunz had a broken snap and the company replaced it, no questions asked. I love them! The fleece keeps the little bum dry and is great for babies that might have a bit more problems with rashes. These diapers keep their resale value really well also. I sold all of my FuzziBunz and got most of my money back.***
Cons: You have to wash the outer and the inner seperately. Well, you don't HAVE to, but if you want your fleece to stay nice and soft, you really should. This isn't a huge con, but if you have limited time for diaper washing, this might be a bit of a deterrant. These are a little more pricey than prefolds, but you have to remember that you have your cover and diaper in there. Also, remember the resale value.

***you might be wondering if I love them so much why did I sell them? Well, I needed something that would fit more than one child in diapers -- like prefolds or MotherEase One Size, so I had to sell my FB's to get money to buy the other diapers I needed. If they had the one size FB's when I was using them, there is no way I would have sold them. I love Fuzzi Bunz!


All In Ones -- the name says it all. This is a diaper, doubler, and cover in one. I don't have any of these and I really don't have much experience with them. From what I've read you either love them or you hate them :) So, my pros and cons are not from my own experience, but from that of others. Please chime in if you have first hand experience with these.
Pros: It's all in one!!! These are trim and ready to go! Very easy for night time diaper changes, and for those who aren't very familiar with cloth diapers.
Cons: They take a long time to dry. The PUL (cover part) wears out quickly from repeated washings and dryings.

Now, a little about washing. I was afraid of washing them to be honest. I had heard that you didn't need a lot of detergent and if you used too much your diapers would stink. But, then don't you want to get all the urine and poop out? How can I do that with just a tablespoon of detergent??? I was confused. I read, I read some more and then I came up with my own washing system. This has changed a bit in the last 6 years, but it is basically the same. Here is what I do --
1. Throw all the diapers and covers in (not wool covers -- I'll do a separate post about covers in a couple of days) and do a cold cycle with a couple squirts of BioKleen Bac Out.
2. Hot Cycle with one scoop of detergent. Do not use anything with smells in it or softeners.
3. One more hot cycle. At this point you could add some vinegar to your wash. I used to but then stopped. Here is a great article talking about the pros and cons of vinegar.
4. Into the dryer they go -- oh, and I take the covers out after the first hot cycle. It is also really important to not use any type of fabric softener or dryer sheets. This will cause a film to build up on your diapers and that will reduce the absorbancy.

Not too hard. I wash diapers twice a week and this I can handle. Oh, and now that the weather is nice, I love hanging them out on the line to dry. This is also a great way to get the poop stains out!

Stay tuned for All About Cloth Part Deux coming later in the week!!!

Friday, May 15, 2009

Mama's Losin' It

Seriously. I am going insane. I know I've talked a bit about Libby's sleeping (or really, lack of) and how it is making me crazy. Well, it is official. I am ready to go check myself into the loony bin (or a really nice hotel) until she is taking naps like she should.

I know that she needs naps. Everyone knows that babies need naps. Why doesn't she know it? I have been doing some of the things from Elizabeth Pantley's No Cry Nap Solution, and I think it would work a lot better if I had time to devote to it. But here's the problem, I have a 2 and 4 year old that need me. As it is, I am devoting most of my day to get Libby to take a nap. She goes down for 20-30 minutes and then wakes up. The book tells me to go in right before she is to wake up and put my hand on her back to help her stay asleep. Well, that doesn't work. So, I end up being in there for another hour either nursing her or rocking/bouncing/shushing her back to sleep. Another HOUR that my 2 and 4 year old are on their own. This cycle then repeats in another 30 minutes. This continues until she has had at least 1.5 hours of sleep. That is her nap for the day. Yep, that's it. I can't devote anymore time to it though because then it's time to start making dinner and my other 2 neglected children will let me neglect them no longer.

Now, on the rare occasion that she does sleep for more than 30 minutes, it is quickly interrupted by the older two again. Because, I go in to help her stay asleep and they come in (despite the stop sign on the door that tells them to...STOP). So, again, that wakes her up.

I need help. I am not willing to do cry it out. I can't do that. I have read way too much about the detrimental effects of letting your baby cry. But, I need help.

I love Elizabeth Pantley's No Cry Sleep Solution and the Nap Solution too. I think it is better suited for parents who just have one child, or a large age gap in their children. Because for us, it is just not working.

I really need help though. Please, help me. I am at my wits end. I am angry and frustrated and tired and cranky and my children are all paying the price for one not sleeping.

HELP!

Monday, May 11, 2009

No Pictures?!?!

Yes, that's right. No pictures. Our desktop has crashed for the umpteenth time and I don't know when it will be functional again. It really is sad. I love our Mac laptop, but all the pictures and my documents that I need are on the PC (piece of crap). And, since the pc isn't working, I can't get on the network to find them. Ergh. So....you're going to be stuck with no pictures for a while, sorry.

If anyone knows anyone at Apple who wants to give a Mom Blogger a new computer, let them know about me! heehee!

In other news....

Liberty is crawling everywhere, in fact she just left my side and is probably going to find her brother and sister...yep, she was eating a shoe -- I love that girl.

I had a fabulous Mother's Day yesterday, I hope you did too. It is always bittersweet, only 3 of the 4 people who made me a Mother are here. But I'll tell you a secret. Heavenly Father let's me have Emma when I need her. I find that on Mother's Day, her Angel day and her Birthday, she is with me. I can feel her so close that sometimes I swear I'll turn around and there she'll be. All of the children (ages 3-12) sang for the Moms in church yesterday. I stood there listening and watching my monkey boy sing and could just imagine her standing behind him telling him to stop throwing himself over the side of the banister. I cried and laughed. I wore my Emma necklace...have I told you about that? No? Oh my gosh. My Mom and Jeremy schemed last year and got me the coolest present. It is a teardrop pendant with a little opening on the back. My Mom had Jeremy send her some of Emma's hair and she put it in the pendant. So, you can't see the hair, but I know it is there. I got it on her 5th Angel Day in August and my Mom wrote the sweetest note with it. She said that the tear drop represents the millions of tears I have shed. I love it and wear it on all special occasions, that way I can have all 4 of my babies with me at once. Thanks again Mama.

Wow, that took an unexpected turn. I guess that is something I love about blogging. It really is like having a conversation, and anyone who knows me knows I go off on tangents quite frequently ;)

I've been working on this post all day today and I'm not really satisfied with it. But, it's the best I can do today. And I am working on being ok with that -- in all aspects of my life.

Have a fabulous Monday friends.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

I Want, I Need, I Pray

I want to always remember you today
I want time to myself
I want you to know that even though I need time to myself
I still need you
I want you to listen to me, not just hear me
I want you to know how I worry
how I ache
how I long

I need to feel your sweet arms around my neck
I need to hear you say you love me
I need to remember the sound of your voice
I need to remember who you are
I need to see the light in your eyes

I pray that daily I will have strength
to be your Mom
I pray that I can be the Mom you deserve
I pray that I can always remember the goofy smiles
the laughs, the squeals of delight, even the tears
I pray I will remember how lucky I am
how blessed I am
how not so long ago I would have given anything for this
I pray that I will always remember
and that I will find ways to thank you for letting me be
your Mom.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

A Little Bit More


I am slowly getting caught up with the blog world. I took a bit of an unintentional vacation. But, I think I'm back in full force now!

So, a few more things we've been up to...
  • Sewing. I have 5 slings to do and I would like to have 3 of them done by Monday. I have made my girls some fun clothes. A skirt for Amelia (my own design! I KNOW! Tutorial coming soon, it's super cute) a dress for Libby, pants for Libby, and I've cut out 2 more dresses and another pair of pants.

  • Baking. I love to bake, so I have been making banana bread, cookies and whole wheat bread. It's all going straight to my butt. Oh well.
  • Dentist. Amelia had 3 cavities, so I had to take her to the dentist last week. She had to have versed, it was hard. She got really loopy and was quite funny, until they started to work on her. She was flailing so much and was so upset, it killed me. I held her down so he could do what he calls "Rodeo Dentistry". I really love my kids' dentist. Before we even started he said that this will help to calm her down, but if she freaks out not to worry, she won't remember any of it. And she doesn't.
  • Dentist for me. I went last week and got a cleaning and yesterday for 4 fillings and a little minor surgery. I have 4 stitches in my mouth and it hurts. Oh yeah, my chin and lower lip are partially numb still. Hopefully it will be better by Sunday because I'm having a good Mother's Day dinner.
  • Drawing. I recently bought myself a copy of Creative Family by Amanda Soule. She suggests buying good quality art supplies for your children. If they see that you buy them good paper and paints, they will be more likely to really appreciate drawing. So, I bought some watercolor paper and watercolor pencils. Seth and I are working on a Knight and Princess that we will then cut out and mount on Mat Board. Eventually I will make this for Amelia. I need to practice drawing bodies more though.
  • Foot Baths. In the most recent Mothering Magazine, there was a fabulous article about giving your kids foot baths. We did this the other day and they loved it. Libby was asleep (for 45 whole minutes thankyouverymuch), so we did this. I made some chammomile tea and let them soak in very diluted tea with epsom salts. Seth picked some dandiloions also. We will do this again for sure.
  • Playing the Sleep Game. You know that game right? The one where you get the baby to sleep and pray that everyone is quiet so she will stay asleep? Then, you go into her room right before she is to wake up and try to get her back to sleep but to no avail? No? What about the one where you get the baby to sleep for the night and are ready to sit down with your husband to watch tv or talk, or heaven forbid just be together and then the baby wakes up and will only nurse back to sleep? No?? Only me huh? Well, that's the game we play at my house. It is not so much fun.
  • Playing. We've been playing a lot around here. Not as much as Seth would like, but that is always the case.

We're having some good friends over for dinner tonight, going to the Market tomorrow, and trying to relax on Sunday for Mother's Day. Have a fabulous weekend and I'll see you next week in full force!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Like Sands Through The Hour Glass

So are the Days of our Lives. No, I am not going to do a recap about Stefano Dimera and John Black and Marlena...even though I was a devout Days watcher in College, I haven't watched it in probably 10 years. Although I am sure they are all up to their old antics. John and Marlena, Bo and Hope, Stefano and his evil minions. Anyway, I digress...this is about the days of MY life, not theirs.

The last few weeks have been full. So full that I haven't had much time to do anything other than what I've been doing. What is it that I've been doing you ask? Well, I'll tell you.

1. We've been at the park. Playing in the sand, on the swings, slides, airplanes and boats (great places for Obi Wan and Ahsoka)


2. We've been outside. I love being outside and when the weather is nice, that is where you'll find me. It's sad for Miss Amelia who is suddenly terrified of bugs. "Mama, are there bugs out here? Will they get me? Are there bugs on the blanket? Are there bugs on the porch? Why are there bugs in the grass? Mama, will the bugs get me on the blanket?" It goes on and on and on.



We have also been gardening and working in our Garden Journals. This is something where we draw what is going on in our garden and we write about those pictures. It is so much fun.




Ah, the lovelies are fighting...so this is all for now. I have much more to show you, sewing, baking (ok, I don't have pictures of baking...maybe I'll have to bake something just to take a picture of it!), and much much more.

Oh, and thank you all for the emails and notes of encouragement about the sleeplessness at my house. It is still going strong, but I am just taking comfort that they are all still here. Liberty will be 8 months old on Saturday. On the 17th, she will be the same age Emma was. That is always a difficult day for me. So for right now I am just holding my babies closer and being so glad that they are mine and they are here. (even though Amelia is screaming in my ear right now because Seth is teasing her)