Monday, April 18, 2011

To My Daughter

After telling her to get dressed, she comes running out of her room in a lemon yellow skirt "The twirly one you made for me Mama", and a brown shirt with teal, pink, purple and green butterflies on it.

She brushes her hair and puts in a headband and clips in her bangs to hold them back.

She throws on her favorite shoes, her dirty purple flip-flops, and does a spin.

"Don't I look beautiful Mama?"

Her hands are always marker stained from the hours she spends drawing, coloring and creating daily.  She has chewed her fingernails down to nubs, and her hair is like mine - thick, coarse and very unruly.

She rides her bike without abandon.  She never walks, she dances.  She loves with all her heart and soul.

She hasn't realized yet that clothes and shoes should match.  She doesn't know that hair should be neatly brushed and styled.  She doesn't understand that marker stained fingernail nubs are not attractive.

She is 4.  I wish I could go back to 4 and never learn the so-called social fashion faux pas that I now know.

I wish I could love myself the way she loves herself.  I wish I could get dressed in whatever feels comfortable and think to myself, "I bet everyone will think I'm the prettiest girl they've ever seen today", just like she does everyday.

She is a princess in every sense of the word.  She loves life with such zest and freedom and I love her for that.

Don't ever change my darling daughter.  Stay so happy, sweet, loving, kind and free.

As we walked to get Seth from school today and you rode your bike with your skirt flying in the wind, this was my wish for you.  This is my wish, today and always, that you will always be true to yourself and remember how beautiful you are.


Bobbi Janay said...

What a sweet post.

Nicole said...

We sure miss that adorable princess!

Tender Heart Bear said...

She is so cute. I think it is so cute that she even tries to get herself dressed for you. My kids would never do that. I really enjoy reading this about your kids.

Cheri said...

I also wish for her what I could never give to you-the feeling that she is the most beautiful, loved and important little blue-eyed blonde 4 year old in the world!!! Oh, how I love and miss this kid!!

Christi said...

this was one of the most endearing and heart felt posts I have read in a long time. Thanks so much for sharing this with all of us who have little girls. :-)