It comes as no surprise then that I have playlists for different times of my life. When I am feeling mellow and just want to relax, I listen to Alison Kraus, Natalie Merchant, Sarah McLaughlin, Joshua Radin and Yael Naim . When I am feeling creative or am cleaning, I listen to The Mollies, Sara Barielles and Diane Birch. Sometimes I just want my old standard favorites and then it is Billy Joel, Tim McGraw, The Dixie Chicks, Metallica, Aerosmith, and R.E.M.
In August and December though, my playlist changes. I listen to my Emma playlist. This list has evolved over the last (gasp) 6 years. It started with Lullabye by Billy Joel. Then some songs by Josh Groban were added. Several more songs have been added and this is what it is today. When I find a song that fits how I feel about her, I add it. This is my list. These are my songs that take me back to that time and place. They remind me of my sweet girl. They can bring me to tears and make me smile in the same moment.
This is my playlist. These are my Emma songs.
1. To Where You Are -- Josh Groban*
2. You're Still You -- Josh Groban*
3. One More Day -- Diamond Rio
4. I Believe -- Diamond Rio
5. Who You'd Be Today -- Kenny Chesney
6. The Prayer (with Charlotte Church) -- Josh Groban*
7. For Always (with Lara Fabain) -- Josh Groban*
8. If I Could Be Where You Are -- Enya
9. Wintersong -- Sarah McLaughlin
10. Lullaby -- Dixie Chicks
11. Lullabye -- Billy Joel*
*indicates my original playlist
So, if you're wondering what I'm listening to when my heart is breaking, there it is. More often than not though, it is this one. The one I listened to repeatedly and nothing else for 2 months straight. The one that was in my head and heart when I woke up this morning. The one I sang when I found myself alone in an all too quiet house. The one that my children call the Emma song.
This is the soundtrack of my breaking heart.