No Weigh!

I need to stop weighing myself everyday. It is a compulsion and it's not good for me. So, I am going to have Jeremy hide the scale and bring it out once a week.

So, I am 5 days away from 6 weeks with no sugar. Here is my progress report.

It has been hard. Really hard. I have eaten a lot of salad (A LOT), a lot of fruit and tons of beans. My house stinks like I've been eating like that.

I got to go do Pilates with my friend Kate. She is awesome and I felt so much better after one day of it. Thanks Kate!

I have had dreams about chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate. But I haven't eaten it.

I have lost 15.8 lbs. I am not going to reach my 20 pound goal, but that is ok. I have worked hard and done everything I could do. 15.8 is nothing to cry at.

Next Wednesday I am going to have chocolate peanut butter cake and enjoy every bite. I am going to make sugar cookies with the kids on Valentine's Day, but not eat any because I would rather have something chocolatey when Jeremy and I go out that night.

I am going to have sugar, but not in excess like I did before. I am going to control my intake and not let it control me.

Changes

I love the New Year. I love being able to start fresh. I don't know why, but it seems that this is when I do it every year. Is it just ingrained in each of us that a new year is the time to set goals and make changes? It is me. And I am changing.

Tonight Jeremy and I sat down and wrote out my health goals for the next year. I am really sad. I was doing SO good with losing weight after Libby was born. And then Thanksgiving happened. Loads of pie, more sugar than I can even imagine and once it gets started in my body, it takes a lot to get it to stop. I am addicted to sugar. Plain and simple. I love sugar, I love sweets, I love to eat it all. I don't love what it does to me though. I am not nice, I am always hungry, wanting more and my clothes don't fit.

So, starting tomorrow morning, I am done with sugar. I am cutting out all sugar, everything white (really sugar is the only white thing that is in my diet anyway), all animal products for 6 weeks. You may remember I did this before. It worked SO WELL. I started eating meat again when I was pregnant with Libby. Then, I let myself have sweets because I was pregnant. Then I had sweets because I had just had a baby and I still needed chocolate. Then it was Thanksgiving, then Christmas and well...there is always an excuse.

Well NO MORE! I am taking control of this and will be healthier. I want to be around for my family for a long time. If I kick it, who will embarrass my children when they are teenagers? I surely can't leave it to their Dad. I love him, but come on. No one can embarrass you like your Mom.

So...here I go. Feel free to check in on me and hold me accountable. My birthday is on February 11 and I hope to be 20 lbs lighter. I can do it.