I am trying.
Trying to find where I fit here.
Find my place, my people, where I belong.
I haven't yet though.
I have one friend here and she is fantastic. She watches my kids, listens to me whine, and is just fun to be around.
But, we are busy and see each other maybe once a week, but usually less.
This town is HUGE.
I am used to my small sleepy town of Logan. I am used to it taking 5 minutes to get anywhere in town. Instead it takes me 5 minutes just to get out of the subdivision!
I am used to small schools and small class sizes.
I found out this week that there are 10 Kindergarten classes of 25 students each in the elementary school up the road. That is SO big. Too big for this small town girl.
Maybe homeschool is the answer for us for a bit longer? I just don't know.
I am trying, trying, trying.
I a going, going, going.
Swim lessons, dance classes, swim lessons again, park days, the gym, homeschool, sewing, gestating, loving on these little people.
There isn't much time for anything other than going.
I am going, going, going because I am lonely lonely lonely.
I am a very social creature and now all the sudden, the only people I have to be social with are my 3 small people and my darling husband. And while they are all wonderful....a girl needs her girlfriends.
I know it will come.
I know I will find my place and will love this place.
But for now...
it is just hard.