My sweet boy will be in Kindergarten next year. This is causing me a bit of stress. Ok, a lot of stress. He is a very smart, funny, sweet, wild, crazy, exteremly imaginative, active, adorable little boy. Really, he is a handful, but he is my handful. I always thought I'd homeschool because no one loves your child like you do, and frankly I'm scared of sending him off with someone else. But, it really is not the right decision for him or me. It is very hard for me to accept that. But, I need to, and soon. School enrollment is going to be coming up soon and I just don't know what to do.
There are 2 charter schools and 1 private school here also. Jeremy and I visited one of the charter schools on Wednesday and I wasn't very impressed. 26 kindergartners in the room. The aide said, "It really isn't that many; there is the teacher, an aide, and always parent volunteers, so it works out to be more like 7 students to 1 adult". Ok, that is great, except unless those parents and aide have teaching degrees, they are not the teacher. That bothers me. Also, I swear, the kindergarten was more like 1st grade. Now, I am all about the acedemics, but to not have any play space in the room? It bothered me. Maybe it's because we didn't do preschool and I want him to have that opportunity to play...or possibly it's that play is as important to me as acedemics.
I plan to visit the other charter school (him getting into that one is about as likely as me giving up sugar before Christmas), the private school and *gasp* the public school.
Small class size is really important to me. I don't want him getting lost in the shuffle. Which is also why I am a bit resistant to public school. I am afraid that he will either get lost in the shuffle, or his sweet spirit will be so crushed that he wil no longer be the little boy I know and love. I am so afraid of sending him out on his own, where I can't protect him anymore, and not recognizing him when he comes back. I know, this is part of parenting, but it's the hard part. Letting them fly and figuring out what is the best flight plan for them to take.
Then there is the private school. It will only be a private school for one more year, then hopefully become a charter school. If I send him next year, then he and the girls are guaranteed admission when it becomes a charter school. That is what I would really like...but, it costs $5600. I know that as far as private schools go, this is really not too expensive. But, it is still a lot more than we can afford.
I just don't know...I will research more and eat more (cause that's how I handle stress) and maybe after doing the latter, I will feel better about this. If not, at least if Seth gets hurt in school he will have a softer place to land.